Monday, October 15, 2007

Happy Birthday Princess

Today is Miss O's 3rd birthday. I know in the blogging world you're supposed to write a big long story about the birth of your child on their birthday, but it's 11:30 at night and I'm probably going to keep it a bit short.
Miss O's birth story has changed a bit over the past 3 years - I know, you're probably thinking, 'How can the story change?' I guess it's my perspective. I didn't have a whole lot of positive things to say about her birth, other than the fact that she is here! There were so many things that went "wrong" - our nurse broke her finger in the overhead light during the epidural so we were without a nurse and didn't know what to do, the anesthesiologist poked me about 20 times before getting the epidural started, the epidural didn't work, Miss O didn't tolerate the epidural + Pitocin, overreacting nurse, 6PM on a Friday night, inpatient doctor, scared parents, no doula, unnecessary c-section with an epidural that didn't take real well, but I was too afraid if I complained anymore that they were going to put me out...But really, the only thing that matters is that Miss O was born happy and healthy and she's with us today! I used to complain a lot about her birth and the way things were handled, but I'd do it all over again to have her here.
I never had a kind thing to say about the doctor who delivered her either, in fact, I was in the process of writing her a pretty nasty letter when I was pregnant with Jesse. Would you believe that the doctor showed up at Jesse's funeral? When I first saw her I was full of rage. We talked to her for a few minutes. She said that she saw Jesse's obituary in the paper and recognized our names and felt like she needed to show up and express her condolences - I had family members that didn't come to the funeral...some that didn't even send a card or pick up the phone, but she showed up! I definitely know that was a God thing. My heart has been softened when it comes to this doctor and Miss O's birth story, it was a like a huge wake-up call for me. For almost 2 years I had been focusing on all the negative stuff surrounding Miss O's birth, but what really matters is that she's here with us today, happy and healthy!
She is definitely our princess and we love her with all our hearts.
Miss O - we love you to the moon and back.
Love mommy and daddy

1 comment:

Jen said...

Happy Birthday Olivia!!! :-) Hope she having a great day!