Sunday, May 4, 2008

The good, the bad and the ugly - Prayers Needed!!

The good: I'm 25 weeks pregnant! That's 6 months, right? YIPPEE! I am thrilled that God continues to bless us with a healthy child. I'm amazed at the activity level of this child that is so reassuring for me - just when I start to have my doubts, I get a nice kick in the side :-) I love it! I find myself being consumed with every movement. Like today at church I zoned out a couple of times as I focused on the tiny movements inside my body. It's something you can so easily take for granted until you don't have it anymore. I remember the morning I knew something was wrong with Jesse and just praying for God to give me some type of sign that everything was okay - just a little flutter or a kick - nothing, he laid still, already in heaven. I don't want to take that for granted anymore - I love the movement, look forward to it, even laying awake at night sometimes waiting for another flutter. I am so thankful for this tiny blessing and I want to enjoy it as long as God allows me to.

The bad: Glucose tolerance test! Yep, it's coming up this week. I have my next appointment with my midwife on Tuesday and we'll be doing the one-hour test!

The ugly: I have never passed the one-hour glucose tolerance test...this doesn't mean I can't, right? With Olivia I just wasn't thinking the morning of my test as I ate a yogurt and some fruit - duh!! I ended up passing the 3-hour test, but for anyone who has ever had the pleasure of taking the 3-hour test, you know how horrible this test makes you feel. If you've never had to take it, you have to fast, get your blood drawn, drink a drink that has 2 times the amount of sugar that is in the one-hour test and get your blood drawn 3 more times - once an hour for the next 3 hours....without eating anything. It's miserable - especially when you have horrible veins that are very deep and like to roll. With Jesse, I did not pass the 3-hour test and ended up with gestational diabetes. At first I was so upset and scared, but you quickly get used to all the stuff you have to do and luckily mine was controlled with diet alone and no insulin was needed. It wouldn't be the end of the world if I ended up with g.d., but I'd rather not - this is where you come in - I need your prayers - PLEASE!!! While g.d. had nothing to do with Jesse dying, it's hard not to try to find some connection, especially since I have no cause of death. I often find myself thinking up things - even though we've been told by specialists that g.d. does not cause babies to die, it's just something that you think about. So, I'd rather not have it and all the complications that come with it. I just want a smooth pregnancy - I'm acting like a spoiled brat! There are some women who would give anything to have a baby, gestational diabetes or not and here I am complaining, but I'm actually just scared to death! I'm scared that something...anything, even something simple like g.d. will be wrong causing me to worry even more than I already do. Yes, g.d. is something that I can cope with. It's something easy to control and it's not the end of the world, but it scares me to death!
Please pray that all goes well this week and that we get results back indicating that I do not have gestational diabetes. Continue to pray for the miracle that God has blessed us with.

7 comments:

Jen said...

Praying for under 140!!!

I flunked the one hour twice and passed it twice. The weird thing is I was already showing symptoms of GD with Wyatt and passed the one hour. The 3 hour sucks. Starting eating Atkins-like now and it'll work out.

Leenie said...

Try having the 3 hour test with a Phelbotomist in training--OUCH--I have a feeling your gonna not have it! Don't worry-- I was a 1 hour flunkie with all of mine (the last one, I know I flunked but they said I didn't.) Anyway, when I flunked w/ Abbey, I begged not to have the 3 hour and promised I would monitor myself and diet. So they let me and I did fine. In fact, I left the hospital skinner than when I got prego. Think that has something to do w/ the 9.6 lbs Abbey was??? :)

Leenie said...

Try having the 3 hour test with a Phelbotomist in training--OUCH--I have a feeling your gonna not have it! Don't worry-- I was a 1 hour flunkie with all of mine (the last one, I know I flunked but they said I didn't.) Anyway, when I flunked w/ Abbey, I begged not to have the 3 hour and promised I would monitor myself and diet. So they let me and I did fine. In fact, I left the hospital skinner than when I got prego. Think that has something to do w/ the 9.6 lbs Abbey was??? :)

mommy to an angel said...

I've been (kind of) following the diet I was given when I had g.d. with Jesse - my fasting numbers have been AWESOME (which is the one I had the hardest time controlling) but my other numbers have been right at the top of where they should be. So this could be ify. I was never drastically diabetic with Jesse - just right over what the top number should be and that's what this is starting to look like. Here's my plan for today: Steak for lunch with a side of pork, ham for dinner with a side of shrimp with fish as a snack. Tomorrow's plan is: bacon for breakfast with a side of egg whites, shrimp as a snack, fish for lunch with a side of steak and a snack of summer sausage right before drinking the stuff! Hopefully that will work :-)

Leenie said...

MMMMMMM......sounds meaty!

mommy24 said...

Right there with you, honey! Love every kick and panic if I've forgotten to monitor it. Call me when you have moments...chances are I'm going crazy right along with you! I'd be happy to go along with you for your test if you think you could use the support.

Anne said...

Please don't eat all of that meat...ugh!
I will be praying for the test to be a big fat negative!
When are we having a couch day???